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Friday, January 29, 2010 9:05 pm
#$#%^&*( listen, ♥  come back to me. You know you no longer mean anything to me, yet you still come back time after time to haunt me. I hate school, I hate my class, I'm beginning to hate running. I'm starting to lose my passion. I'm slowly losing my self. I feel so numb to the things around me, I feel like dying right now. Just slitting my wrist or cutting myself seems like perfect ways out. But I'm not gonna give up the fight, I'm gonna stand up against the world even if it's alone. go fark the wall. MARTHA!
8:33 pm
whore listen, ♥  fark what i've said. I believe some people should just think before they speak and not offend too many people all at once. If you think you're awesome, then so be it. Don't farking put others down and constantly think that you are the best cause you knw what, there are so many other people out there who are better then you. You said not to backstab, aint you doing that too? Whatever please. I hate the way you insult my friends. I hate the way you think that you are the best. I hate the way you try to make us believe that you are sacrificing something for us when you are not. I hate the way you make us feel so insecure and like idiots. I hate the way you sway with the flow. I hate the way you play your politics, cause i can do so much better. I hate the way you smile. I hate your hypocrisy. I hate the way you try to make us feel as though we belong. I hate your existence. I hate the way your try to prove your sincerity when you are not. I hate the way you try so hard to gain our support but fail. I hate the way you think that you are the best and that nothing can ever bear you or put you down. I hate the fact that you think you rock. I hate the way you try to act as though you know everything when you know nuts. I hate the way you try to click with us when we do not like you. I hate the things you say and do. I hate your sudden betrayal of the team. I hate the way you suck up to authority, it disguses me so much.I hate the way you think that you'll so important when you are not. I hate you and you! You need to get an eff-ing life. Just go away and stay away from us. You're not worth nuts and we don't care about you or your existence AT ALL. Just get a life and stop acting all popular when you are not. We don't wanna know much about you. We don't wanna mix with you. I don't care about what you say to me, i'm bothered by what you said to my friends and I believe that you are NO BETTER AT ALL. We can do everything that you can, what makes you think we're not any better then you? Just get a life and stop thinking that you're so great and almighty cause it disguses us so bloody much to see you lying to yourself and trying to convince not only us, but others as well. Fark off please! YOU MAKE IT SEEM AS THOUGH OUR FRIENDSHIP ISN'T WORTH A SINGLE BIT. you dun understand. MARTHA!
Thursday, January 28, 2010 6:27 pm
random listen, ♥I love receiving flowers cause i feel love. :D I love seeing people smile cause they make me smile. :D I love people who respect others despite their enmity. :D I love it when people you know smile at you and say hi. :D 1 more week to my birthday. I really dun wanna grow up. D: (: MARTHA!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010 6:41 pm
): listen, ♥  all for you. I feel depressed, lifeless and as though I'm gonna die right now. Why is my life not turning out right? D: I hate Biology cause I cannot seem to be able to answer the questions despite having my notes. D: I hate Shakespeare cause he's killing my brain cells slowly. D: Tsk, it's just the beginning but I feel all drained and dying. D: close your eyes. save me, MARTHA!
5:30 pm
ass listen, ♥ .jpg) i know our dreams will never die. I never thought we were that bad. I mean, come on! We may be noisy, uncooperative, annoying, idiotic and all the things in the dictionary that describes being bad, but we never murdered nor hurt anyone. So what wrong have we done to be labelled as "low class"? If we are low class, then why are you still teaching us and annoying us with your nonsense lectures and tutorials? Whatever teacher, you're no better when you call us low class. Oxford University, big deal. Try harder, you're not that fantastic after all. I have so much work to complete and I'm sick of being put down by these teachers who think that they are so great when they are not the least bit useful. Thank you for constantly telling us how stupid we are and for insulting us time and again. Thank you for never motivating us or encouraging us to do better but crush our ego time and again. Thank you for never being there for us and supporting us in whatever we do but instead, nag at us as though there's no tomorrow. One day, you'll see and finally understand what we are made to do. We'll build our own success slowly but definitely and get back to you nasty people who never supported us. Our time will come when we go "IN YOUR FACE BITCH/BASTARD! THAT'S THE PRICE YOU PAY FOR PUTTING US DOWN!" there's no price i won't pay, to say these words to you. xoxo, MARTHA!
Monday, January 25, 2010 11:31 pm
hohoho listen, ♥  when you say nothing at all. I'm grinning from ear to ear cause i'm finally done with PI. I need to sleep now before i get cranky tmr. There's econs. D: i dun like econs. D: There's lit timed assignment and i knw nuts about Taming of the Shrew. Wish me luck, i think i'm gonna flunk and die. Maybe i'm destined to be a failure/loser. D: i've got such a sad life. In any case, i'm tired and wanna sleep. GOODNIGHT! :D Voda, i miss you. See you on Saturday. :D BestFriend, come home soon. D: BFF, see you on Friday! (: Aiai, i miss you. D: you make me believe in a lie. MARTHA!
10:14 pm
D: listen, ♥  something that will last. There's a possibility that i might die soon. D: I'm ultra woman, working on my PI which stinks! D: I dun like PI but am looking forward to PW cause they say it's fun. I'm going crazy. D: This is killing me cause i want my beauty sleep. D: I'm so tired, i'm gonna start rolling on the floor soon. D: Okay, Goodbye! D: cause it thrills me to annoy you. xoxo, MARTHA!
6:49 pm
-.- listen, ♥Sometimes, i dun understand what goes on in the human brain. D: xxx, MARTHA!
Thursday, January 21, 2010 6:05 pm
loser listen, ♥Hi Fark face, please use your farking brains to think before you open your shit hole mouth or i'll slap your assholic face. You can insult anyone except those dear to me and by insulting my Sweetie, i wanna punch you in your fark braces teeth. Go talk to the wall if you have nothing nice to say. Go away, go and die. _|_ If we happen to be stupid, you're no better. (: Love, MARTHA!
Tuesday, January 19, 2010 8:36 pm
zomg listen, ♥I still cannot believe how hottttt you are after such a long time. Slap me, slap me, slap me. (x Okay, shut up Martha! My knee is hurting so badly now. D: another 2 months off running. )': i feel like dying. I hate it whn i receive bad news. ): Okay, i wanna watch tv and try convince myself to study. Rofl, kill me, kill me, kill me. Okay, break my knee now please. xoxo, MARTHA!
Sunday, January 17, 2010 11:07 am
_|_ listen, ♥  take me by the hand. TSK! I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE IDK START BREATHING DOWN MY NECK. I WANNA KILL PEOPLE RIGHT NOW! I'M SO BLOODY ANNOYED I WANNA KICK SOMEONE IN THEIR GROIN! GO AND DIE, GO AND DIE, GO AND DIE. YOU JUST BLOODY SPOILT MY MOOOOD! idk where you are but i'm with you. D: MARTHA!
Saturday, January 16, 2010 11:30 pm
tsk listen, ♥  hold you through the night. Finally, pictures and colours. (: happy? :D So i havent finished doing my homework. I cannot seem to concentrate or find my answers to the question that i'm doing. I'm so freaking annoyed at myself for not being able to complete what i set out to do. I hate myself for being useless and not getting things done. Idk what's wrong with me, but i've been itching alot recently and i wanna roll on the floor and die. I dislike the grass for causing me to itch. I dislike the weather for giving me heat rash. I dislike pespiring because it makes me itch like a monkey soon after. Tsk, i hate so much things! ): i need to learn how to love. D: I must complete what i set out to do BY tomorrow or i'll be so bloody annoyed with myself for the week. I need to complete my homework, revise and start on my project. Okay, i'm so tired but i'm dying to find the answers to my homework. I've been drinking so much water but i still feel sick. Maybe i'm sick in the head. Dreading Monday so bloody badly! Please dun come! ): Idk if i'm looking forward to my birthday or not. D: i dun wanna grow up at all. ): i wanna be a kid once again. I wanna rewind my life and find better things. I wanna appreciate my friends, family and the people who once shared their lives with me. I want to, i want to, i want to but i can never. ): I wanna go shopping. D: oh oh oh, i'm seeing my Pals next week. YAY! :D Voda, thanks for the audio text, i love youuuuuu soooooo much! For you a thousand times over! xoxo, and and and, i miss youuuu! See you soon okay? XOXOXOXO, I want to much in life, i feel so depressed. D: okay, i wanna watch teeeeveeee. (such an ass, i'm suppose to be doing my homework and studying and starting on my project) Oh, bye Aphicha. D: i'm gonna miss you so badly when you're in Thailand but best wishes in everything that you do! :D i'll visit Thailand some day, i promise. (: in all that you do. xoxo, MARTHA!
1:36 pm
determined listen, ♥I MUST COMPLETE MY HOMEWORK BY TODAY! I MUST STUDY OVER THE WEEKEND WHICH IS TODAY AND TOMORROW! I MUST START ON MY GP PROJECT TONIGHT, BY HOOK OR BY CROOK! BYE! xoxo, MARTHA!
Friday, January 15, 2010 8:23 pm
fark listen, ♥We're just being unrealistic and fake so why bother? Stay away from me and i'll be more than happy. Just walk away so that i dun have to see your face. You annoy me so much, i wanna slap you silly. _|_ D: MARTHA!
4:37 pm
tired listen, ♥YAY! :D it's finally Friday. :D Sorry my post has been short and boring cause i've been using my phone to blog. I'm so tired now, i wanna sleep for abit. (x so, GOODBYE! :D I need pictures on my blog soon and and and, i lost 1kg! Okay, goodbye world. (: xoxo, MARTHA!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010 5:45 pm
pffffft listen, ♥It's only the second day of school and i feel burnt out and tired. Struggling to survive and live by the day. I believe that things are really getting out of hand. I just bathed but my eyes feel so heavy and i wanna sleep so badly. Having a very bad tummy now cause it's burning thanks to the chili. ): i hate it whn i'm stupid, it makes me feel so inferior. ): Need to do loads of homework. I want to sleep, i'm not in the mood to eat. ): Goodbye! MARTHA!
Monday, January 11, 2010 11:00 pm
fark listen, ♥Hi, did i mention that i hate school so much and that i dun wanna go to school anymore but to no avail because i need to complete my education? Yay, fark school and life. _|_ Today, my new econs teacher dumped 6 econs essays and 3 case studies, asking us to completeit asap and there is econs tmr. *sceam, catching breath* Now, i feel like dying and idk what i wrong with my lenses cause it seems to be going crazy. I'm so tired from waking up early and school, all the shit that i'm put through. Bear with it Martha, it's only 692 more days to freedom. Awaiting that say so badly, i wanna roll on the floor and die now. Okay, goodnight. I carnt be bothered with work anymore and i need to sleep. Bye! Hweejie Precious, you did a good job. Really! Cheer up okay? Iloveyou. (: Meiyan Honey, dun worry abt your results now. I'm glad you're positive enough and hey, everything will go on fine. Shawn Bitch, i know you're upset now but dun worry, there's nothing to fear. No matter how much you hate yourself for doing so badly, i'll still love you. (: Eugene Buddy, dun worry abt your results cause i'm sure you'll enter poly for sure. (; Shengjie, give some credit to yourself. You've done a relatively good job and i'm sure you'll be able to go to where ever you wanna go. Look on the bright side, everything will be fine. xoxo, MARTHA!
Saturday, January 09, 2010 9:42 pm
sulking listen, ♥It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart. Without saying the words, you light up my heart. Try as i may, i can never explain, what i do whn you dun say a thing. The smile on your face, let me know that you need me. There's a truth in you eyes, saying you'll never leave me. The touch of your hand says you'll catch me, whenever I fall. You say it best, when you say nothing at all. It's the silence that drift us further away from one another. Pathetic life starts from Monday, i'm a sad kid just like the rest. Sigh. ): Xxx, MARTHA!
Thursday, January 07, 2010 10:46 pm
moron listen, ♥I hate bengzxzxzx especially when they have a lighted cigarette in their hand and start hurling vulgarities as if there's no tmr. I feel like punching them so badly and kicking them in their balls. If they wanna fark someone so much, go get a room. If they wanna see those kind of things, go find a prostitute or a gigglo. You have to pay for services alright. Bloody dumb farks, i feel like smashing your faces and throwing you people the big monsoon drains. _|_ MARTHA!
12:30 pm
blank listen, ♥Whn will my life ever turn out right again? I'm sick of lying to myself, telling myself that things would get better in due time. This feeling sucks, life sucks, everything sucks. Such a good way to start a year. Such a positive start to a sch term that is approaching so quickly, that i feel like dying. Take me with you, please? D: MARTHA
1:14 am
D: listen, ♥I'm a depressed young kid. )': I havent done my hmwrk and i feel like banging my head on the wall before slitting my wrists and thn jumping off the building. ): I feel so small and pathetic, i wish things would get better. D: sigh, MARTHA!
12:49 am
sigh listen, ♥Magic school bus. Dun question, dun ask why. I just wanna be alone. D: MARTHA!
Monday, January 04, 2010 1:58 pm
foorprints listen, ♥"I will change the world for you - only if you allow me to." "I will be your sunshine after a pouring rain - only if you let me." "I will stand by you and be your light in darkness - only if you would grant me that." "I will carry you and run forever - only if you want me to." "Good things in life are hard to find - only you can make things right." Sometimes, we look back in life to search for all the beautiful memories people leave behind. xoxo, MARTHA!
Sunday, January 03, 2010 9:18 pm
<3 listen, ♥You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy, when suns are great. You'll never know dear, how much i love you. Please dun take my sunshine away. xoxo, MARTHA!
8:40 pm
pffffft listen, ♥Confusion is such a scary feeling and so much is running through my head now. Slowly but certainly, we are drifting away. I need motivation, i need motivation, i need motivation. xoxo, MARTHA!
Saturday, January 02, 2010 8:34 pm
silence listen, ♥Cause only you can put a smile on my face. <3 xxx, MARTHA!
3:39 pm
you listen, ♥Cause you hurt me time and again, expecting me to forgive you time after time. I dun have such patience to wait and to embrace you time and again despite your constant ignorance when you're around others. Why bother if i dun mean anything? I never expected anything more then to be friends, am i wrong? I'm tired of lying to myself and thinking that things are fine and going right cause the fact is, it's not and nothing is going to change the fact that we're just hiding from the truth. Nothing hurts more then your ignorance and you indulging in self-pity whenever we start a quarrel. It's always my fault and will always be because you're so over protective about yourself that you trap yourself in the past constantly and are not willing to break away from that. What am i to do? What more can i ask and expect other that honesty? You say you're trying, am i not trying as well? MARTHA!
Friday, January 01, 2010 1:40 pm
new year listen, ♥My hard work and patience finally paid off. (: Happy New Year everyone! :D Have a blessed 2010! Xoxoxoxo, MARTHA! |
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